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I will always love you..

I leave now, because I know I should. With the beautiful memories I made. Some that are real, some that I hope would have happened. You almost don’t seem real anymore. Did I imagine you all this time.

I don’t know, but I want to keep inside my happy bubble the memories that make me warm and fuzzy! I want to leave now, because I want to always love you.

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State of affairs

I have lost my spark. I know as I can tell. Life has finally started to get to me. I feel beaten down. I need something to work out. Just one thing.

God I need a sign! I really do.

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Reality Check!

That moment when you think you had it in control, but it takes less than a glance to ruin your resolve, buckle them knees and get into a pool of tears.

All you did was fake it, as you weren’t making it.

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Closure

You denied me of a coffee, a conversation and closure. I think of you, but I know I am over you. I will miss what we could have had. Now I know there is nothing much to mourn.

I didn’t get the closure I wanted. I have finally made peace. I might still have moments of weakness. They will remain inconsequential .

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Ebbs and flows.

I have good days and then outright terrible days.

Thinking of you makes me smiles on most days but some days it reduces me to tears.

Why did you have to come into my life to be taken away so rudely..

I am hanging on and I know I will survive this. In time.

Doesn’t seem like time is passing by soon enough.

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I miss you!

By no stretch of the imagination this is right, but I miss you. I brought this upon myself. I made the choices and in my heart I know it was the right thing to do but I miss you. I shouldn’t. I didn’t want to. I thought in time I would stop. I haven’t. I miss you. I don’t know how to stop. I have tried everything I know. My last string to you is waiting to be cut like the umbilical cord. I don’t have it in me to get go off that life line. In time though that might be the only way.

I often wonder what would have the alternative been like. I may have been in more pain. One never knows what the other side holds in store for us. So I am going to hold my peace and pray to god that in time I will be over you.

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At a loss of words

At a loss of words

That happens at times.

I have so much to say

But the words fail me.

What I feel, What I say

Sound like a lie sometimes.

I have so much to say

But the words fail me.

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