I had 4 blogs. None getting the attention, I thought I would give them. In the years that I have been blogging, I have resisted the urge to start forty six blogs, even though I really wanted to. I realize that there are many facets to our existence. Even though I occupy one body I live several lives. I don’t suffer from any disorders I can assure you. Just because I like food, travel, theater, medicine, research, or would love to write about varied topics, I know that people who read this blog might not have the same interests. Hence the need for different blogs. You know to tease out the right audience, so I can generate some conversation on the blog. We all would like a meaning conversation on our blogs. With the way my blogs were going (no where), I wanted to change things up. So I merged three blogs into one. For now I have two blogs. I plan on starting another but I will wait a while before I get into that.
I don’t recollect when I stopped being vociferous about my opinions. I have plenty like all of us do. Like all of us should. I even disagree strongly. I just don’t voice my thoughts. I find people very volatile with poorly researched facts voicing their opinions based on their emotions and perceptions rather than putting the facts together, or listening to other points of view. There is no discussion to be had with such people. Which over the years I find is almost every body. Small minded people, who lack intellect, are really not worth getting into a discussion with. So over time I have changed from talking to listening missing real conversations with real people. Unfortunately those very ignorant think I agree with them because I don’t oppose them. If only!
If I could have one day or even a moment, in which you could indulge in me, with no consequences to my words or actions, just pure exchange of words, feelings and thoughts, then perhaps we could stop with the blame game, forgotten past, unsaid words and unwritten stories.
In the ideal world we would still be friends. The kinds that chatted for hours, in spite of months or even years of silence, between whom it was okay to let our guard down and admit our love for each other. We don’t acquire each other, we chose each other which makes this a unique bond.
No, this post is not in any retaliation, so wipe off that smirk from your face. I will admit though that you too are a part of this hope that I hold for so many.
In the ideal world, I would not have to hope this hope..
Filed under Abstract, Camaraderie, Communication, Conversations, Disappointments, Emotions, Expectations, Friends, Life, Pain, People, Personal, Relationships, Short, Thoughts
I leave now, because I know I should. With the beautiful memories I made. Some that are real, some that I hope would have happened. You almost don’t seem real anymore. Did I imagine you all this time.
I don’t know, but I want to keep inside my happy bubble the memories that make me warm and fuzzy! I want to leave now, because I want to always love you.
Filed under Attitude, Decisions, Friends, Friendship, Life, Love, Love hurts, Pain, People, Personal, Relationships, Thoughts
You denied me of a coffee, a conversation and closure. I think of you, but I know I am over you. I will miss what we could have had. Now I know there is nothing much to mourn.
I didn’t get the closure I wanted. I have finally made peace. I might still have moments of weakness. They will remain inconsequential .
I have good days and then outright terrible days.
Thinking of you makes me smiles on most days but some days it reduces me to tears.
Why did you have to come into my life to be taken away so rudely..
I am hanging on and I know I will survive this. In time.
Doesn’t seem like time is passing by soon enough.
There is a big difference in what you say and what you do. However well-intentioned you might be, you have to realize if it does not get translated into actions, your words mean nothing.
We are not sustainable on words alone. This will take a lot of work.