Paying my dues..

Dates come by fast. Only I have nothing to show for it. Some pain, some emptiness, a lie full of promises. A worried husband, a counselor on stand-by. Yet this is my battle, mine alone.

Words fail me. My feelings fail me too. I don’t know if it is okay to mourn the loss of what was not meant to be. Is it okay to hold on to the positives and move on?

The mind is playing tricks. All the heart wants is a moment of peace. In due time I hope.



Filed under Decisions, Disappointments, Emotions, Expectations, Experiences, Loss, Sad, Thoughts

7 responses to “Paying my dues..

  1. Stop.
    Take a step back.
    Take a deep breath. Again. Again.
    Whatever is weighing on you, you are not in this alone. Your husband and counselor are close at hand, you just have to reach out.
    praying for you. 🙂


  2. SA

    It is what it is and if you think you are down under then the only way is UP..
    Take a step back, slow down, relax and everything will be fine..
    This shall pass too and that’s the beauty of time.


  3. Hi,

    I have always seen your comments on my blog, and I, being a terrible blog reader, haven’t come and checked your blog much. For a long time now. Today, though, I came here coincidentally, and read couple of heart-breaking posts. Wishing you all the strength you need to get over this. Yes this too shall pass.

    Take care of yourself,


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