Just because I haven’t been here in a while doesn’t mean I don’t have things to say to you. My thoughts matter, I know. Even though you may not tell me that, your actions tell me plenty.
I have kept my promises so far. I have traveled, had conversations, took a real break. Facebook remains a part of my daily routine, but I know it is only a matter of time when things change.
My emotions might be killing me. I stuff my face with crap when I am happy. I do the same when I am sad. I seem to have no control over the roller coaster ride I am on at the moment. Even my stomach grumbles with all the abuse I am making my body go through. How do I change that.
I need new promises. My head is playing games with me. With change looming in the near future, the mind, the brain, the heart are playing mind games with each other. I am happy about this change. It has been too many years in the making, but am I the same person that wanted this change? Or has the waiting changed me?