Twenty-one

Twenty-one.

That is all that lies between who I am today and what I really want to be. I agree with my husband. Whatever happens will not preclude me from living my life. It will not change the person I am. It will not change my conviction, my beliefs and my strength to keep the fight alive.

Every warrior needs a break.

Every fighter needs that win to keep marching on. I believe I will find that win. Failure has never got the best of me. Success will only be so much sweeter. For once I don’t want to think of all the people that wrote me off, those that gave me all the advice in good faith I am sure, but chipped at my spirit nonetheless. I don’t want to think of all the sacrifice, pity, gut wrenching conversations.

I won’t give up. You cannot break my soul.

I want to think of the faith, prayers and hope. I want to think of what lies of ahead of me. I want to know that the real fight is yet to begin. I want to see that this was all worth it in the end.

Twenty-one. That is all that lies between who I am today and what I really want to be.