I started off with gmail. Then yahoo. The hospital server does not allow me to access facebook, which is a good things, since it allows me to actually do more than just play lexulous and read people’s updates. I then went on to the BikramYoga webiste. It is becoming my second favourite place to be. I have the ABSITE page and 4 tabs on it. J.Crew and Banana Republic fall collection pages, and the New York Times world news section. All running simultaneously on this computer. I also have this wordpress page where I am furiously typing hoping that I wil find some method to my madness.
I did the unthinkable recently. I thought of signing up on Twitter. I felt that I have so many flitting ideas that I should put them down some place, those flitting ideas. But I need structure. I don’t know how much Tweeting would help. So I resign to blogging, something I enjoyed when I started. I am not the same person anymore. I am not in UK, alone with a room and my laptop, a broken heart and dreams of a better future.
I am in that future I dreamed about. I live in a city I absolutly love and for all the wrong reasons I am sure. I am married to a wonderful human being. I wanted to say husband, but then I haven’t sampled other husbands so I wouldn’t know. As a human being, this husband of mine trumps the other human beings I have encountered. Hmm, there could be an element of bias, but of all the screw ups I have made with character judgement I am really glad about this one.
Things need to change on the professional front. I just read this post. It has spoken rather loudly to me. A lot of things do, but then inertia seems rather potent. I don’t know how or when am I going to change things around. I know it is in my hands, aren’t most things? or are they? It is so much easier to resign to failure and find excuses.
I want to be able to find one priority for the day. I want to be able to achieve that one task for that day. Today, I want to stop and be able to smell the roses.