Like everyone else I have my best interest at heart. Like everyone else there isn’t any part of me that doesn’t put myself before all else. I know that makes me selfish, self centered and probably very irrational.
The only shred of reason I might have is that I acknowledge; it is possible I am wrong when I look out for myself. Every time I decide to chose myself over everything else around me I could be doing wrong. I am cognizant of that possibility.
So, there are times when I will let go. Let go of occurrences that saddened me, hurt me, confused me, and left me a little distanced from people I considered my very own. I let go because I chose to see the bigger picture.I let go, because at that instant I decide I am going to take a back seat.
Then there are times, that I don’t want to. Not because I don’t remember the good times, or I have forgotten every thing that was said and done, not said and done, or because I forget about seeing the bigger picture.
Sometimes, I just choose me.