Profanity, rant, may not be suitable for sensitive readers.
I have always struggled with personal statements.
Being a doctor by profession doesn’t really help in the language department. Either we talk too much or we don’t at all. Putting our thoughts onto paper is even harder. Selling ourselves on paper is just outright impossible.
I was conned into believing that doctors needed teachers and to teach doctors I needed to become a doctor myself. To become a teacher, which is what I wanted to do when I was three, I had to become a doctor first.
So I went to med school. I need to do residency because that is the next logical step of the way. I cannot practice medicine unless I have a post graduation. I need a visa because I decided to be in this country. I want to do internal medicine because that is all that makes sense to me. I like critical care, because I did not go to med school to forget about 90% of the body to be get fixated on one organ system and ruin the others while being anal about my specialty.
I have lost a few years in transition, because working to pay for my exams, taking exams, moving to the U.S, getting to know the health care system in the U.S, a little bit of my personal life all takes time. In case you didn’t know.
I think having persisted for so long and not given up to do anything else speaks for itself. I want to be a doctor and I will be a damn good one, if only you could take the time to see for yourself.
That is pretty much all I have to say. Yet I have gone through pages and drafts and versions of my personal statement. I am trying to sound all professional and committed and out of the world awesome to get myself a position. It is annoying and frustrating at best.
I don’t know how one can make anything out of my personal statement. How can anyone judge me? How can anyone get to know me? How can anyone know what I been through? What makes me a good candidate? How can anyone tell that I will be the one resident who wont be watch looker, that I will work my ass off, that I will be the one who goes that extra mile since I don’t believe in shift changes. I believe in being a doctor and I know I am a good one at that.