Rant/ Sad… You have been warned.
It has been over 18 months I have had to actually get up to an alarm clock. I blank out for a few minutes, wondering what exactly I should be doing.
I was very excited to be where I am. I had totally forgotten why I hated it as much. The realisation is slow and painful.
Friends I were to make, have made it very clear they hate me already. I doubt there is a point in even making an acquaintance.
I am hung on a person I don’t even want to be with. The tug of war between my head and heart leaves me jaded and sad.
I am where I insisted to be. Not exactly where I wanted to be. It is hard to appear happy. I am tired of smiling.