I’ve been resisting the urge to make a phone call. Since yesterday. I was ill all of yesterday. So depression came along with it. When one hits low they want to talk to whom they think, will make them the happiest. Well the one who would have made me the happiest is not for me to call. Principally.
So I am being strong willed. The urge isn’t so much to talk, but to know, if my call will be received. The response has been sporadic in the past and hence the uncertainty.
Doesn’t help, that people I know well will be interacting with the said person through work. Difficult position to be in. Cannot tell them what to do. Cannot tell them why. Principally.
Doing the right thing by others can get tiresome. Doing the right thing by your self is so much harder.