Some times you ascertain your own measure of success. For most people it is the tangible. Rightly so.
The last exam I took was all about the patient. 12 random people getting paid 10 dollars an hour or so to pretend to be patients were going to objectively mark on a piece of paper my clinical skills.History taking, examination, communication, ethics and manners ( read mannerisms really).
It didn’t matter what I know, what my experience has taught me how well I can run a code blue. What mattered was what impression I had created in the 15 minutes that I faced this ‘patient’.
Ask any doctor who has attempted the Clinical Skills Assessment. They will tell you this exam means nothing. If you have had any experience with patients you are good to pass. The result is declared a pass or fail at that.
For me this exam was an endorsement of my ability to be a physician. I haven’t been half as anxious about the result of any of the gazillion exams that I have taken like I have been for this one.
For me it really matters that I am accepted as a physician no matter what, who, where and how. And I passed. 😀