A friend had once told me, “I will break down if you ever lose your confidence in me.I don’t care about the world, but I wish you have some faith in me.”
We all make mistakes.We all do wrong things.We wrong other people.Most of all I think we wrong ourselves.Take wrong decsions.Make bad choices.Be self-destructive.Just do the wrong thing.
Then a person you call your friend comes along.Watches you do your thing.They believe you will see the light at some point. When you don’t, they even nudge you a bit so you can get back on track.
You know they have your best interest in their heart.They don’t understand you at this point, but you hope they will eventually.You tell them every little detail, confident they wont judge you.You think they know what makes you the person that you are today.
The friend tries hard to understand you. Gives you your time and space.When they cannot see you go on and on about what they think is wrong for you they snap.They get into an uncomfortable zone.They want to tell you to your face but they also want you to know that they are there for you.That tussle some times breaks them down.Even destroys the friendship at times.
We don’t want to be told we can do better.We know we can do better.But this is what we want to do now.We know we deserve better.Everyone does.But this is what makes us happy now. We know this may not be the smartest decision we took in our lives, but we took it anyway.We do things inspite of knowing you think they are wrong, because we believe they are the right thing for us to do.So many times we aren’t looking for approvals or endorsements.We are only confiding because we have the need to tell some body. Have some sort of a witness to the lives we lead.
We have all been at the recieving end of such judgement at some point in our lives.It isn’t the best feeling.It isn’t supportive.If anything the lack of confidence and support is condescending. I understand we tend to have undue expectations from our friends.They are only humans after all.But then, so are we.