It can be difficult at a time like this.A few more days and we would be welcoming a new year.Another year.Another milestone.
I haven’t been taking too well to these milestones.They seem to be coming on too soon in my life.Not so long ago, I found myself really upset about turning 28 and being me.I would love to change a gazillion things about my life but given the choices I had I think I have done well. I know things could have been a lot worse and they aren’t. So may be I actually have things to thank God for.
What bothers me, isn’t how well I have done given the circumstances, but how much I wanted to do inspite of them.Some things I could have done differently but I didn’t know better.Now I do.Do I consider that time lost or experience gained. I don’t know.
I do know that humans have the best defence mechanisms in place.We know very well how to justify our lives.We do it so beautifully that we begin to believe there was no other way or choice.
….might be continued…