The blast from the Past:
It is such a thrill for me when some people from my past recognise me even before I have completed saying hello over the telephone.I haven’t spoken to some in over 3 years and yet, it doesn’t take them a second to squeal out in delight.It doesn’t take any effort to start off from where I had left.It is easy to have a conversation.It is a warm feeling to be around them.They know me, or have an idea of who I essentially am.They have tried their best to keep track of me and how I have changed over time.They have been aware that they were changing too.No matter what, I feel welcome in their lives.They understand me so well, that I know I can trust my feelings with them.They provide me the security I know I can fall back on.
The stated Present:
Most people come and go.They all have a purpose in your life, even if it was that bitter sweet lesson you had to learn.Nothing stays forever.Not even people.There is always a current set of people in our lives.There have been in mine.New friends that I have made around the block.New colleagues, crushes,cousins I have just learnt to love.New relationships I have got into.It is this novelty that is so appealing.I see an effort by all concerned in this this new relationship.We are at our best.We want this to work, just like some of our old relationships have.There is a comfort of the skeletons being tightly packed in the closet.There is hope and a certain charm.It is beautiful and it is like falling in love.Till one day I know expectations will creep in.Judgements will be passed.People will walk away.But hey! I am here now and so are you.So why not ROCK ON!
The future that awaits:
I don’t know what life has in store for me.How many more set backs, failures even.How many more heart breaks,disappointments.How many people are going to fade away like a distant memory.I don’t know.I don’t want to know.No I haven’t become any stronger.Each failure takes away a bit of my confidence.Each set back, throws me down a few miles,requiring a lot more effort to get back to from where I fell.Each heart break leaves me slightly bitter.Each friend lost leaves me skeptical.Yet I strive to give the best I can to each new moment, new opportunity,each new person in my life.
I do some times wonder whether the the future that awaits me, will understand that there is a reason I cannot give my 100 percent.I don’t have a 100 percent left in me.I wasn’t born any lesser.I guess it was life that happened to me.