Its a beautiful sunny afternoon.One of the many she has shared with her friend.They enjoyed a chat here and there.Talking at length, aimlessly about everything and anything.Much fun those times had been.
But things changed.Expectations came along.Insecurities crept in.More questions than answers. Need for some love, definitely a hug.She wondered if she was expecting too much.May be they weren’t really as close as she thought they were.Why did she feel she needs to hold back, when all she wanted to do is, talk to her friend. All they could do was talk,there was so much distance between them.Yet they never did.Why?
After all this time, all the reasons for pulling away, seem to have faded away.Yet she holds on to that very piece of paper on which she had written down her most deep down thoughts.It reminds her of all the reasons,which made breaking away from her friend,necessary if not important.Her insecurities really.She needed to hear she was wrong and that things will be fine again.But she got no such comfort.She will get no answers either.
But why does it have to turn out like?Why do some people become a part of your life when you made no efforts and some no matter how much you did, never really become a part of it.It shouldn’t have required any effort.That is not how friendships are made let alone maintained.
If it was all so wrong why did it feel so right.If it at all it was right, why didn’t it last?For the time it did last, how come there is nothing to hold on to?If there was nothing to hold on to how come this void hurts so bad?Should it at all.It was her decision after all?Does she stand up to herself, or give in to her feelings?Should she reach out and make amends one last time or let time take it from here?