After a very crappy performance on this blog I am still not ready to let go. It as been more than 5 years since I started and not even 500 posts. So there has to be a reason to stay. I don’t feel stifled here. Simply put.
I reached out to a friend recently. Someone I had let go a long time ago and while it was not an easy decision I did it anyway. After a few recent exchanges, I was hoping to find that friend again. I did. I believe therein lies the problem. Over a decade has passed and the years have not touched them.
I am married to one of the nicest human beings in the world. Three years yesterday. After 3 years of being together I can think of 30 reasons why this marriage should not work. I know only of one, that will make us survive long. Our Commitment to what we started. While that is a scary thought I believe it makes the conviction stronger.
A little bit of politics, a little tact, a little bit of personality and a lot of hard work. Even then there are no guarantees in life. Sometimes no matter what you have done or tried or how much you have put into it, it can all fall flat in your face. No one is ever prepared to deal with failure but one always has it in the back of their head. Tough.
Today is the first weekend where we get to relax. Today is when I will write my holiday cards. Today I will spend time with the love of my life and celebrate our years together. Today I will call my friends. Today I will complete one project. Today I will live a life.Today I will smile.
Hi there. Been a while… but be rest assured i have been following your blog ardently (in spite of the ‘crappy’ performance as you put it…) I will be touching 4 years of marriedom in March and so i can completely relate with what you have written here. I think for me, marriage just taught me one fundamental lesson in life…. that something called The Ideal doesn’t exist
Keep writing.
Mind in a mesh: Yes it has been long. Good to see/hear from you. You are right and you know what I am okay with all the imperfections. I think it makes like that much more interesting. You should keep writing too. Love to read.
And you should smile, you have a beautiful one too.
Hope you continue to blog. Have an absolutely miraculous twenty-twelve.
by the way, changed by blog url to http://mind-in-a-mesh.blogspot.com/
San: Thanks! I plan to. Fingers crossed for both of the above.
Mind in a mesh: Got that. Thanks for letting me know.