12.13.05
Its New Year’s time….. AGAIN
I am meeting a very dear friend tomorrow.I am seeing her after 5 months.I have missed her birthday, her engagement and now the year is coming to an end.For every mile stone that she has achieved I have a gift for her.Only now I will actually be able to give them to her.I am so excited that I decided to be extra nice.I actually decided to buy wrapping paper.
Wrong timing to say the least.Everything appears red, gaudy, and frightful. I am aware that the christmas shopping mania started in October.Since then I have lost the will to shop, even do my gorceries.Everyone is trying to sell every body,some thing in the name of Christmas and if you don’t believe in Christmas then New Year’s.All of it just screams vanity out loud and sadly this will continue through to February or even March.
It hurts..the eyes,the pockets,the sentiments.And a part of me doesn’t approve of this gaudiness.This fake celebration,this whole hoo-haa of new year approaching..Its just another day..Life will go on…WHAT IS THE BIG DEAL????
I was very depressed around Diwali time.The Hindu new year.I don’t know if it was really due to what was happening in and around the world and all those people dying.All that suffering.I did wonder what was there to celebrate?Who are we kidding?Are we really happy?Or was it more out of not being with any family whatsoever.
It made me question my being?My purpose?I am a doctor! I pledged to help lessen suffering and what have I done??A few donations here and there..a few hours of voluntary work..but then what???
With all these thoughts coming back to me to haunt me I was looking for the right wrapping paper.The one that would portray my sentiments.The kind that would tell her that I am truly happy she is my friend.The kind that will depict the profound happiness I felt, when she told me she got engaged.The kind that will assure her I hope the best for her in the coming new year,the kind that will tell her I am her friend and will always be.
I didn’t get the kind of wrapping paper I was looking for.Actually in all that rush and madness I decided I could do without it.But I did realise some thing.
What I call blaring hypocrisy there is a cry for hope.There is that chance to make a difference.There is that opportunity to bring a smile.There is a moment we get to celebrate.
We don’t forget the dead,dying,suffering..we remember the survivors the fighters, the ones that live.This crazy hoo-haa is telling some one out there..let go of the past because there is a new begining, there is another chance,there is hope.
The glaring vanity that I call, tells some body that they are being thought of,that they are important,that their existence means some thing and because of them the world is a better place.
I doubt I can go out and appreciate the madness the world makes out of this holiday season,but I think..I am now waiting for New Year to begin!..I know a lot of us can do with all that it promises to bring our way.
vishwa said,
December 13, 2005 at 9:47 am
Hi there,
your post made for good reading. I gather, we need excuses to celebrate life– may be that’s why festivals were created. In some future, when we grow to such an extent that every moment becomes joyous, every bit of life becomes a celebration, then we can give up all these outward festivities. But until then, let’s gather and enjoy, at least for a while.
A suggestion—– ‘Educatedunemployed’ doesn’t sound very pleasing– or does it? Mind giving a thought to it?
educatedunemployed! said,
December 13, 2005 at 10:16 am
Hey Vishwa,
Thanks, Yeah! I guess I am the sort who doesn’t need that reason to celebrate.Hence this show sha doesn’t make any sense to me and I don’t see why people reach out for reasons.
I am just happy to be there..here!..
And LOL..yes..no EduUnem..does’nt sound pleasing at all.Have been thinking about it.Will work on it.
aSh said,
December 13, 2005 at 3:39 pm
Hey Eu,
the two letters that stand out in your blg name …
i love to celebrate….and haev celebrated…amma says me and my dad needs only an excuse to call ppl over. a few dear ones….
never thought in the way u thought before….christmas has been a wonderful time all along with the trees and decorations and baking…
diwali has been filled with crackers and sweets and holi with colours …
a feeling is all that makes the difference….and have it
Take care
Ash
lost-in-translation! said,
December 14, 2005 at 2:49 am
Hey Ash
I love celebrating festivals too.It was definitely fun and looked forward to when I was at home with my family.Some how it was nicer in India.Here in UK all you see around is posters and ads for the best gift for him, her, mother, father..Like you need an occasion to give your loved ones some thing.Its like they sell emotions in the name of the occassion..Even bread packets have a hapy Santa face..It just gets to me.
aSh said,
December 14, 2005 at 9:53 am
for a moment i thought who was addressing me on ur blog until i realised that it would be my EU,…
that would get to me too …
Good day ..
Ash
Yogi said,
December 14, 2005 at 12:31 pm
Uff…why you change the name…educated unemployed…it was so cool. No probs, I’ll have the name.
Yogi said,
December 14, 2005 at 12:40 pm
here you go…
lost-in-translation! said,
December 14, 2005 at 5:37 pm
Ash,
“My EU”..thats so cute!You can call me what ever you want.
Yogi,
Thats my space name on msn where I originally started..you can have it too,I was thinking about a different name here..and I think for a while I will go with l-i-t.
educatedunemployed said,
December 14, 2005 at 7:46 pm
Maam,
Since have called you a friend and you are a lady and, and I think of myself as a gentleman so de-confiscate your id.
:-|I (That ‘I’ is a bow)
Have to go back to my boring id :
educatedunemployed said,
December 15, 2005 at 8:16 am
Yogi
LOL..Gentleman indeed!